My Experiment

My eyes have been bothering me a lot lately so I decided to do an experiment yesterday. It went like this:
Hypotheses-Tears cause one's eyes to burn after repeated exposure
Materials-Eyes and maybe tears
Procedure-Whenever I feel like crying, I will STOP and think of something fun.
Conclusion-YES, it is true. My eyes felt fine last night.

Every time yesterday, when I was cast in the pit of sadness, I thought of the EXPERIMENT. I went for a walk and saw a truck like ours go by then wondered how much more Gerry would be driving his truck. I could feel the tear bucket filling up and just before it overflowed I took a deep breath and the level went down.When I opened the freezer in the afternoon, there was a big piece of dark fruitcake, Gerry's favorite and I thought how he would hoe into that if he was well. Once again, I could feel the tingling in my eyes start but remembered the EXPERIMENT.
Last night, as I put the nightly wood in the stove, I gazed at the diminishing pile of wood that Gerry and I had split last summer, finishing it on his last day of chemo. I picked up a piece, stopped for a moment and remembered that beautiful sunny day, in the back field, Gerry hoisting the heavy logs on the splitting platform as I controlled the hydraulics that would split the log into a size more conducive for our stove to use. It was a happy, happy, day. Many days of chemo and radiation were done and he was still able to do things he wanted to do. As I thought of this, I also thought of how small his muscles are now and how white his hands are and since it was late and my experiment was over, I let the tears fall.